I play GW2!

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Sometimes a guy just needs to escape. I play Guild Wars 2… Used to be a WoW Head and for those of you not familiar with the expression “WoW Head” its another online multiplayer game AKA: World of Warcraft.

I decided to ditch WoW cause well its a Pay to Play and its outdated graphics engine/bloated controls made it too much of a let down/life commitment to play. GW2 allows me to log in, hit a Player vs Player environment and be a badass without committing hundreds of hours to endless gear grinds. Grinding to keep up with the power curve. I pretty much never step into the Player vs Environment aspect of the game. Occasionally I will for my Guild, which by the way is very active.

My WoW Guild was dead, my server was dead. All that was left were elitists gamers that required min/max stats & minimum achievement quotas. I don’t have that kinda time or the energy to commit to a virtual hobby. Plus its FREE to PLAY! And I like Free Stuff.

Shout out to anyone out there that plays GW2:

I am Bringavanger, Champion Legionnaire of Jade Quarry.

I look forward to seeing you on the battle field…

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Aries; today, I’m a survivalist

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 42)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource: horoscope.com || August 3, 2015

“There are several opportunities open now that weren’t there before. The key is to take advantage of them. Find freedom in the strange and new. Be a pioneer today and venture into the unknown. This is a day to expand and reach new heights by having more confidence in your abilities. Things will get stale and boring if you keep doing the same things over and over.”

Today, there are no opportunities. Well maybe one if you count the opportunity to rest, but not by choice. Ok, maybe by choice. If there are future opportunities I don’t want to think about them today. Today I am taking advantage of being alone and shutting my eyes. Listening to the peaceful silence.

My life is full of strange and new, not just today. Past, present, future. I’m not sure I find that much freedom in it. Freedom to me would be the ability to come and go, explain myself to no one. Justify my decisions to no one. Be a “true pioneer” and venture into the unknown with regard for no one.

But eventually that existence gets lonely and it’s a vicious cycle. I believe there is a future coming where I expand and reach new heights. Confidence is not the issue. I’ve been confidently trending upward and forward for 3 Yrs steady from near death experience to working man. I kinda feel like in this moment standing still, I’m not being the most responsible man. My spending is out of control lol.

Today I’m conserving energy. Today I’m hiding inside from the sun, the heat because I don’t have the resources to properly feed myself. I’m 1 Day from payday and this time, I really need to get it right.

I have an itch, it wants out. I have a bug… I want to be an adventurer, into the unknown. I have dreams of setting and achieving goals to travel the world under my own human power. Dreams to own a home that I don’t spend the majority of my natural life paying off. I want to sell power back to the grid. I want to be a minimalist, satisfy my inner man and fulfill my inner peace.

The question I ask myself is… Am I posturing to pounce or circling to slump down into a heap of sleeping hair skin and bones, acquiescing to societies idea of natural progress by consuming, driving, building, marrying and divorcing. Standing still in a place where I’ll never be able to catch up with the fast lane?

Aries; Back on Track

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 35)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource; Metro | July 2 / 2015 | IT’S ALL IN THE STARS by Sally Brompton

You will be forced to choose between two tempting possibilities today. If it’s a choice between moving up in the world and making a positive difference. Make a difference.

I had many possibilities to choose from today. Two was not the number. And I decided to hit everything with all systems go. If I had a choice, I made a positive decision. Today I managed to get the apartment cleaned, and I mean legit clean. Not just a 10 Minute Tidy. The dishes are washed, floors swept and mopped. The washroom has been scrubbed top to bottom. And the laundry is in the machine as I type. It feels good. And lastly I am catching up a little on my photography, editing the latest batch of photos. Topping it all off I’m blogging, which as you can see has been very sporadic.

I don’t know if I made any decisions that are going to “move me up in the world” but my decisions mos def made me feel like I’ve made a difference. My home is my castle and for a bit it was feeling more like a dungeon. A place I go to take off my dirty clothes, sleep and put on clean clothes. I even bought new lamps, paper shades and much softer light than what I normally use when painting/sketching.

really helps me with my Zen 😉

recovery Day X; Satisfaction Guaranteed

When I unplugged my recovery support unit…

I found a whole new world. I am back to work now, most anyone that reads my blog knows I’m now working in the bike industry again. And… I LOVE IT!

I know transitioning is hard, I did it slow. I set 3 Goals, part time work (started at the QEII) then two part time jobs within 6 Months to a Year (I was hired on with FRED 6 Months after the QEII) I then worked for FRED and IDEALBIKES for another 3 – 6 Months and now recovery Day X lands directly on top of full time employment with IDEALBIKES.

I love it, I love my co-workers & my employer is amazing. I mean all workplaces have their hiccups and I am not always the most passive person making grinding gears a touch more common BUT… There is very little stress thanks to the management style of my employer.

I never thought this is where life would land me. I made a plan though, I sat down with my councilors. We started with the simple stuff, wake up in the morning. Shower, brush your teeth. Leave the house and be productive. Every Day! Even if your productivity yields the smallest of rewards.

And you know, I had set backs. I made mistakes. I lapsed once. I learned my life lessons. Here I am, standing at the gates of achievement. The gates have opened and I see nothing but endless opportunity. And it all starts with setting a small goal in the shadow of a bigger picture.

Don’t be scared, step out into the world… But walk at your own pace. Success comes in all shapes and sizes. Be kind to yourself and live to the maximum potential your situation permits. Satisfaction Guaranteed 😉

Art; Halifax Harbour

Title; Halifax Harbour, finger painting by Ross W ©2015

Title; Halifax Harbour, finger painting by Ross W ©2015

Wednesday night @ Connections the Art Group was small and we decided to break out the water based paints and have a ton of fun. Or at least I had a ton of fun lol. I love to finger paint, or paint with strange objects ie: I once painted an ink abstract with an Avocado shell. Or sometimes I use fabric swatches, paint the face and use the resulting abstract shapes to construct realistic environments.

Point is, I have fun 🙂

Aries; getting better & EVEN BETTER!

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 18)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource; Metro | April, 29 / 2015 | IT’S ALL IN THE STARS by Sally Brompton

Opportunities to better yourself won’t be hard to find over the next few days, so stay alert and be ready to act when you get the chance. Nothing is impossible if you want it enough.

Opportunity is really what has brought me to the place I am today. I have a pretty good sense (from experience) when its a good time to pull the trigger on something. And opportunity is really the name of the game in this city. It is much smaller than Toronto, more people hunting for that perfect moment.

Today I decided to take another swing at generating opportunity by hitting up the staff at Connections with my age old dual role spiel. I don’t think its fair to put a person managing their recovery in a proverbial cage and say “you’ve made it this far and if you want to advance farther, we need you to discharge yourself from the Clubhouse and all your supports. Disconnect yourself from your community. Or go somewhere else. And here is where the “nothing is impossible” bit fits. If I want it enough and I rattle enough cages. Just maybe…

recovery Day X; General Membership!

What is General Membership?

mq1General Membership is a goal to seek for members that are in recovery from various mental health disorders while supported by Connections Halifax. It is a symbol of progress. Reaching General Membership means you are standing on your own two feet, you might still be a little wobbly but your standing and managing your recovery on your own the majority of the time.

I still have full access to Connections and its resources if support is necessary. There is a need to see my Psychiatrist less frequently. And my contact person is not on high alert, ready to sound the alarm if I don’t show up at the Clubhouse for a few days. Essentially this is a stepping stone to possibly one day standing completely on my own two feet firmly.

I’m in my third year of recovery and I consider this achievement great progress. I’d like to Thank everyone that made it possible; Mike Nahirnak, Heather X, Dr. Dini, Nancy Beck, Gail, Gloria, Fred @ FRED Style. All my friends @ Connections Halifax (there are too many to name) and anyone else I may have missed. 

Thankyou SOO MUCH for supporting me in my recovery!