Off Grid

In more ways than one.

It has been a while since my last post. Mostly due to my lazy at home routine. I’ve decided to accept the person I really am since writing my last blog post “Lists Work”. I am a bit of a sloth at home. Procrastination (within reason) or  last minute tidying is not of any risk to my personal health or safety soo trying to fit a square peg of mass productivity into a round hole of extremely relaxed home life (deeply entrenched in escapism) is not worth the stress and anxiety being busy induces.

I have been examining my relaxed home life routine. And I’ve found that roughly every two ta three years there seems to be a natural plateau in my levels of productivity. The remedy historically has been change. Extreme change; relocation typically. Starting over is a very familiar and satisfying feeling. I love to purge myself of forgotten junk.

With that said, there is a point I’m getting to here… I don’t like living on grid. I feel like it is primitive and harbors a feeling of imprisonment. My creature comforts generate a dependency. Before I know it, the world and it’s routine become familiar. It bores me to death. It is time to shake things up again. Note, only in my home life this time. My job and employer are amazing. You would have to chain me up and drag me out of the shop lol.

I have decided to leave tradition behind and make a move towards independent living OFF GRID. This will been one of the most life changing decisions I have ever made. And; It will begin with a purge.

Lucky for me I’ve been living in a very small apartment for the last two years. My present living space measures about 147 Square Feet (this figure excludes the washroom & kitchen). I love my current arrangement but affordability & location (far from work) have forced me to reevaluate my long term sustenance plan.

Living off grid and being self sufficient really fits my personality type. I really don’t like asking people for help. In a perfect world I’d rely on no one. Nothing is ever perfect though. Really I don’t mind asking someone for help as long as they allow me to fairly compensate them for services rendered. But handouts; I’ve ridden on the coattails of society much longer than I ever intended. It is time to stand alone.

With that said I understand that it is not reasonable to just abandon the traditional lifestyle of having immediate access to electricity and running water. There is a plan in action here. I’m not just flying in the wind… Step one is to bank a healthy purse and acquire a van to serve as a temporary dwelling/transport. To achieve this I’ll be employing a technique self dubbed “grid surfing”. Its kinda like couch surfing but no couch. It does still require the goodwill of others but it is closer to a barter system. I’ve managed to nail down a favorable situation and likely this temporary bout of transient life will prompt more blogging.

End Game; I have my mind body and soul set on converting a shipping container into a permanent/mobile dwelling. This is a photo of the desired container for conversion.

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Aries; today, I’m a survivalist

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 42)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource: horoscope.com || August 3, 2015

“There are several opportunities open now that weren’t there before. The key is to take advantage of them. Find freedom in the strange and new. Be a pioneer today and venture into the unknown. This is a day to expand and reach new heights by having more confidence in your abilities. Things will get stale and boring if you keep doing the same things over and over.”

Today, there are no opportunities. Well maybe one if you count the opportunity to rest, but not by choice. Ok, maybe by choice. If there are future opportunities I don’t want to think about them today. Today I am taking advantage of being alone and shutting my eyes. Listening to the peaceful silence.

My life is full of strange and new, not just today. Past, present, future. I’m not sure I find that much freedom in it. Freedom to me would be the ability to come and go, explain myself to no one. Justify my decisions to no one. Be a “true pioneer” and venture into the unknown with regard for no one.

But eventually that existence gets lonely and it’s a vicious cycle. I believe there is a future coming where I expand and reach new heights. Confidence is not the issue. I’ve been confidently trending upward and forward for 3 Yrs steady from near death experience to working man. I kinda feel like in this moment standing still, I’m not being the most responsible man. My spending is out of control lol.

Today I’m conserving energy. Today I’m hiding inside from the sun, the heat because I don’t have the resources to properly feed myself. I’m 1 Day from payday and this time, I really need to get it right.

I have an itch, it wants out. I have a bug… I want to be an adventurer, into the unknown. I have dreams of setting and achieving goals to travel the world under my own human power. Dreams to own a home that I don’t spend the majority of my natural life paying off. I want to sell power back to the grid. I want to be a minimalist, satisfy my inner man and fulfill my inner peace.

The question I ask myself is… Am I posturing to pounce or circling to slump down into a heap of sleeping hair skin and bones, acquiescing to societies idea of natural progress by consuming, driving, building, marrying and divorcing. Standing still in a place where I’ll never be able to catch up with the fast lane?

Aries; Just had to fuck it up…

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 41)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource: horoscope.com | July 27, 2015

Your mind may seem rather cloudy today, Aries, but don’t let this hinder you. In fact, you can use this dreamy feeling to your advantage. Try to bring more magic into your life. The more you accept your bizarre feelings and ideas, the more things will fall into place. Don’t think that everything in life has to be completely rational.

Aries, you were on a roll. Even on the days I haven’t been loyally reporting. I really felt like we had a thing going on, but this evening. You fucked it up! I was NOT cloudy today at all, in fact I was clear minded. I was on time, on my game and the only time dreamy feelings that overtook me was while I eyed my next bike purchase lol.

Magic is not really my thing; bizarre feelings… Ideas, oh man lets not go that deep down the rabbit hole. Things are falling into place but its cause of hard work, strategic thinking and experience. Everything in my life conforms to a certain rationality. No rational, no room for it up in here. I don’t do drama.

Ross W’s Page for Ride the Rails for Cancer 2015

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Ross Ward’s Personal Page for Ride the Rails for Cancer 2015.

I will be riding along with IDEALBIKES.ca (my present employer) to raise money to help advance Cancer Research and purchase new Equipment to aide those currently suffering in their battle. My Goal is to raise $1000.00 and I hope that for most of my readers this resonates as a good cause. There is no contribution to small! If you are able to help, I Thank You with all my heart!

Ross W

Aries; running on fumes

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 38)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource: horoscope.com | July 17, 2015

Trying to get too much work done in the course of the day could prove self-defeating, Aries. Your energy isn’t what it usually is, and you’re probably operating on adrenaline. Consider the situation carefully and list your tasks in order of urgency. The world won’t come to an end if you don’t get them all done by the end of the day. In the evening, watch a movie and order a pizza.”

Last shift I worked from 10 Am to 10 Pm (Wednesday), my shift ended at 6 Pm but I kept on chugging along. It really was a self-defeating endeavour. I just worked myself out of things to do the following day.

My energy has been very low, but I am fucking up my entire program. I’ve been missing my meds, screwing up the schedule. I’m not sleeping as much. I ride the bus more often than I should ride my bike to work. Annnd I have been drinking a little more than normal. Normal is Zero drinking, but I’ve been sneaking in a beer or two a week. I’m mixing it with my evening pizza.

Aries; The Logic will set you free

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 37)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource: horoscope.com | July 16, 2015

Recent spiritual breakthroughs might have you feeling both exhilarated and downcast, Aries. Your sensitive side tells you that this is a definite step forward on your spiritual path, but the logical side might cause you to doubt its reality. Take comfort in the fact that reality is relative and that what you’re sensing is at least valid for you. Then keep moving ahead.

I don’t know if recent life breakthroughs have been spiritual or not. But I can sure as hell tell you that my skepticism is in full swing. In the past 24 Hrs feelings of exhilaration paired with the witnessing of deceit have downcast me into a pit of logic. My sensitive side says strap on the suit of armour, bury my spirit deep and embrace the serenity of sound decision making. I have no doubt that life may teach lessons intended to diversify our spiritual side. Life also teaches us lessons that exposure to extreme elements may harm both our physical bodies and the metaphysical mind. Life right now is delivering me a very real sign. Bunker down and push forward regardless of external elements. The warning signs are valid and I am standing in the eye of the storm. One more battle and I will rise victorious!

Aries; Back on Track

When my Life & the Stars collide (Pt. 35)

horoscope-aries-tattoo-designSource; Metro | July 2 / 2015 | IT’S ALL IN THE STARS by Sally Brompton

You will be forced to choose between two tempting possibilities today. If it’s a choice between moving up in the world and making a positive difference. Make a difference.

I had many possibilities to choose from today. Two was not the number. And I decided to hit everything with all systems go. If I had a choice, I made a positive decision. Today I managed to get the apartment cleaned, and I mean legit clean. Not just a 10 Minute Tidy. The dishes are washed, floors swept and mopped. The washroom has been scrubbed top to bottom. And the laundry is in the machine as I type. It feels good. And lastly I am catching up a little on my photography, editing the latest batch of photos. Topping it all off I’m blogging, which as you can see has been very sporadic.

I don’t know if I made any decisions that are going to “move me up in the world” but my decisions mos def made me feel like I’ve made a difference. My home is my castle and for a bit it was feeling more like a dungeon. A place I go to take off my dirty clothes, sleep and put on clean clothes. I even bought new lamps, paper shades and much softer light than what I normally use when painting/sketching.

really helps me with my Zen 😉