Check, check and check!

Lists Work. Mostly

Last night me, myself and I had a little talk about how lazy I am getting. My body and I agree that something must be done. And so I made a list of things to do. And I have ACHIEVED great things today. Let’s take a look; Here is my list…

  • Well, I’m gonna start by topping off my run jar for distances already ran.
  • My ass doesn’t like the morning. Solution: pack at night.
  • Tomorrow I am going to ride to work.
  • I am not going to eat garbage take out for breakfast.
  • I’m going to try and consume 355 Milliliters of water or more.
  • I am going to ride home. (Or to my managers meeting if there is one.)
  • I am not going to eat garbage take out for dinner.
  • I am going to check in with my blog, and let you know how I did.

Starting from the top. Ahh ok, so topping off the run jar. I didn’t actually do that lol. That is more of a day off thing. Starting seeecond from the top. I did pack everything the night before. Holy crap did this help. I woke up, washed my face and brushed my teeth. Put my clothes on without thinking or worrying that something was forgotten. It was pure organizational bliss!

I did actually ride to work. It was really beautiful out this morning. Sun shine, a little cool but once ya get going you don’t really notice. Ya know the funny thing is. I often sleep in. Like to the last minute sleep in. But I went to bed at midnight and set my alarm for 7:00 Am; I woke up at 6:41 this morning. That hasn’t happened to me for years. It’s like the planning put my body into a mode of preparedness. I really like how the morning came together.

Breakfast, I did eat out. But! I went to a much nicer place where I could sit down and read the paper. I could check out the news. Listen to the morning hum of the city. I had French Toast but with fresh fruit and the owner gave me two more tangerines free for the road.

Water consumption, this one always gets me. But I drank half my flask today and it’s about a litre in volume. I also had some G2, I did a lot of heavy lifting today and lost a lot of fluids. I know G2 is not the best thing to use for replenishing electrolytes but it’s what I got for now.  I also had a black tea. Not sure where that lands on the healthy scale?

Dinner, I am having salad. Its got kale and berries, some walnuts in it.

And lastly, check in here. Done, done and done.

Day 1. Success!

Rinse and Repeat.

 

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Motivational Tools,

Plus One.

img_20160508_202359.jpgTurns out a traditional Bucket List doesn’t work for me. I’ve had a handful of near death experiences, mostly drunken dare devil stunts or people trying to kill me. All due to my award winning personality of course lol.

Over the last couple years, bacterial infections or viral paired with severe psychosis and depression there have been moments I’ve nearly done myself in. All that and you would think I’d be chomping at the bit to get out there and have some fun.

Truth is, I am boring as fuck. Hah. I really love my job, so I work a lot. It keeps me grounded and out of trouble. But it also makes me a little boring, or Ok. A lot boring.

Other than working a lot, I have a lover. She is my world. And she likes to get shit done. Or at the very least make sure I get shit done lol. We met a long time ago it seems. Spent some time apart and still do spend time apart. It’s an over distance relationship and in a way always has been short, far and everything in between. Big story small, she puts the DO in “get shit DOne”. And I like that. She pushes me to get with the program and ya know what, sometimes I need that. A swift kick in the ass and a sweet reminder to not just talk about doing something but also doing it for reals. And so the pic you see above is a motivational tool she uses and has recommended I use. It is a coin counting jar incase you didn’t catch that. You run. And as a reward, you put coins in it equal to the distance ran.

My girl is a runner. I’m a cyclist. I wanna be a runner though. I also want to hike, and kayak. I have to admit honestly, I have a problem actually doing all those things regularly. I have a problem doing any of these things at all.

My thing. And I got this thing where I like to go big or go home. But I have turned into such a lazy blop when it comes to my physical fitness level I do a lot of just staying home. I consider my ride to work, progress. And this is a real ego crusher. There was a time that I could hop on my bike and solo ride 180 Km in a few hrs easily. Not anymore my friend.

The question now is what am I going to do about it?

  • Well, I’m gonna start by topping off my run jar for distances already ran.
  • My ass doesn’t like the morning. Solution: pack at night.
  • Tomorrow I am going to ride to work.
  • I am not going to eat garbage take out for breakfast.
  • I’m going to try and consume 355 Milliliters of water or more.
  • I am going to ride home. (Or to my managers meeting if there is one.)
  • I am not going to eat garbage take out for dinner.
  • I am going to check in with my blog, and let you know how I did.

Here’s to progress, and if anyone else out there is in depressed lazy blop mode. Feel free to get with the program and run with me. I use Strava to track all my fitness and my handle is Ross W. Look for the Ghost Riders flaming skull. That is my Strava calling card. Although I am consider a lovey rolly Panda until I get back into go mode lol.

 

 

Clinically Acclaimed!

recovery Day X; depression strikes

mq1Step 1. Tell Someone;

Depression is no stranger to me. I know what it looks like, how it changes my attitude and behaviour. And I know that when it strikes to suffer in silence is a common response. Depression crushes my drive to socialize. It crushes my desire to care for my home, to care for myself. It sucks the joy out of the things I love the most. Its a bummer, like a flat tire during the worst snowstorm of your life. And you don’t have a spare.

Well… A flat in the middle of the worst snowstorm of your life and no spare tire. You call someone. I know its hard. I know its embarrassing. I know it can strip you of pride. Rob a person of their ability to feel independent. Left unchecked long enough it can start to tear your life down. It can affect your job performance. Maybe even lead to job loss. Bills pile up; And the hole gets deeper and deeper.

Last Monday I was diagnosed with moderate to severe depression by my Doctor @ Connections. He diagnosed me because I told him something was wrong. And I was given two choices; Take more medication OR Initiate the use of my most powerful and effective tools, one being Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT).

For those of you not familiar with CBT, its basically a self or assisted launch of a learned tool. CBT helps a person evaluate situations negatively impacting their mental & physical health. Upon evaluation identify negative behaviours and implement a simple, attainable plan of action to help improve or correct the situation.

My Doctor & Connections are amazing. A worker was notified of my situation, it is not an emergency in my case because I have a strong history of self guided recovery. I set in motion a plan that day to right my course:

  1. Ride my bike! Healthy body, healthy mind. Exercise reduces stress.
  2. Eat Right. Drop the comfort foods, eat green & healthy proteins.
  3. Take out the trash, mentally & physically.
  4. Work Smart, be productive & creative. Feel Accomplished!
  5. Rinse and Repeat, but don’t overdo it. Start Small.

Soo far, since Monday I’ve executed steps 1 through 4 and I’m getting ready for the “Rinse/Repeat” part. I see improvements already. Its small, but ya gotta start somewhere.

Who knows, maybe my medication will increase? Is that bad? Meh, I don’t think so. But I can sure as hell tell anyone reading this;

I’mma fight. I’m gonna use my learned tools & fight!

Knowledge is power.