Clinically Acclaimed!

recovery Day X; depression strikes

mq1Step 1. Tell Someone;

Depression is no stranger to me. I know what it looks like, how it changes my attitude and behaviour. And I know that when it strikes to suffer in silence is a common response. Depression crushes my drive to socialize. It crushes my desire to care for my home, to care for myself. It sucks the joy out of the things I love the most. Its a bummer, like a flat tire during the worst snowstorm of your life. And you don’t have a spare.

Well… A flat in the middle of the worst snowstorm of your life and no spare tire. You call someone. I know its hard. I know its embarrassing. I know it can strip you of pride. Rob a person of their ability to feel independent. Left unchecked long enough it can start to tear your life down. It can affect your job performance. Maybe even lead to job loss. Bills pile up; And the hole gets deeper and deeper.

Last Monday I was diagnosed with moderate to severe depression by my Doctor @ Connections. He diagnosed me because I told him something was wrong. And I was given two choices; Take more medication OR Initiate the use of my most powerful and effective tools, one being Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT).

For those of you not familiar with CBT, its basically a self or assisted launch of a learned tool. CBT helps a person evaluate situations negatively impacting their mental & physical health. Upon evaluation identify negative behaviours and implement a simple, attainable plan of action to help improve or correct the situation.

My Doctor & Connections are amazing. A worker was notified of my situation, it is not an emergency in my case because I have a strong history of self guided recovery. I set in motion a plan that day to right my course:

  1. Ride my bike! Healthy body, healthy mind. Exercise reduces stress.
  2. Eat Right. Drop the comfort foods, eat green & healthy proteins.
  3. Take out the trash, mentally & physically.
  4. Work Smart, be productive & creative. Feel Accomplished!
  5. Rinse and Repeat, but don’t overdo it. Start Small.

Soo far, since Monday I’ve executed steps 1 through 4 and I’m getting ready for the “Rinse/Repeat” part. I see improvements already. Its small, but ya gotta start somewhere.

Who knows, maybe my medication will increase? Is that bad? Meh, I don’t think so. But I can sure as hell tell anyone reading this;

I’mma fight. I’m gonna use my learned tools & fight!

Knowledge is power.



Whats in a Brand? Are generics legit…

Last Saturday I picked up new meds from a new pharmacy. They dispensed me a different “brand” … really just another generic. I was taking APO and they changed it to TEVA. Since the switch tho, my guts have been a wreck! Supposedly according to the pharmacist the medical ingredients are the same. And that’s cool, I don’t know if its the medical ingredients I need to be concerned about.

You ever read the non-medical ingredients on your meds? I do… Now. I have no idea whats going down really but all I can do is look at all the changes I’ve made since experiencing new symptoms and change one thing back at a time. Starting with this medication. They changed all the brands on me soo I’m going back one at a time to see whats up. If it makes no diff, gotta starting looking at my diet or my environment. Today I switch back to APO-Quetiapine and cross my fingers it is the culprit.

I gotta say tho, for me normally this would be a bad ass panic session. But I got some great tools in my tool box for coping and I’m in full deployment mode. Coping well and clearly seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

I’m off to make a non-medical ingredient comparison. I’ll check back later with my findings. Anyone else have a similar issue?